I love Spring.  It’s my favorite season.  The world starts to wake up from its winter slumber.  Daffodils poke their heads up, trees bud and flower, life stirs.  And for some odd reason, we often feel drawn toward cleaning out, cleaning up, and bringing order to chaos.  Ah, yes.  Tis the season for spring cleaning.

For many of us, life is usually such a whirlwind of activity that there isn’t room or time to really get things in order.  We’re too busy, too rushed, overcommitted and stretched thin.  But what if someone called a big time out?  What if life slowed down?  What if I got stuck in my house for a couple of weeks because of a worldwide pandemic?  Oh yeah, here’s comes the silver lining to COVID19!!

And what if, just maybe, this big time out actually contains an invitation for us.  What if it’s an opportunity to look at how we live, what we value, where our priorities lie?  Maybe it affords us time to learn stillness and contemplation.  Those tend to be lost arts in this day and age.  And perhaps, in our newfound stillness, we find ourselves face to face with God.

It’s interesting that scripture never says, “be busy and know that I am God”.  Rather, it is a call to stillness.  “My soul, be quiet before God, for from him comes my hope. “  (Psalm 62:5 International Standard Version)  In the quiet, we can actually hear God speak.  In the stillness, we can feel the breeze of His presence and the warmth of His embrace. 
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I’ll be very honest and say that stillness did not come naturally to me.  When God first asked me to try it, I thought He was trying to kill me.  I fidgeted and squirmed, and protested and walked away.  I couldn’t hear a thing, feel a thing, sense a thing.  So I fidgeted some more and got straight on to the “weeping and gnashing of teeth” phase.  But God insisted, and so I tried again, and again, and again.  Until stillness actually came.  And then so did God, and He brought peace with Him, and companionship, revelation and life.  And all of the sudden my soul understood the value of stillness and the wisdom of a God who knew that I needed it even when I couldn’t see it.

So here is your invitation, from a God who knows you, loves you, and wants your company:

In a world gone mad with fear and uncertainty, when the earth can only offer our limited scientific understanding, when life turns on a dime and all that we know fades away, here is God - wanting to meet you, and bless you, and keep you.  May your heart turn toward Him so that you can hear His song over your life, over your family.  Jesus cares about you and the worries of your heart.   Father has never been caught off guard and has planned even now for your welfare.  If you find yourself needing to talk, reach out and I'll be happy to do that with you.

When traumatic things happen in our lives, they tend to shake up our sense of who we are.  Sometimes to the point that we feel forever changed by those things.  It is true for each of us that our story is made up of the events and relationships of our lives.  We are shaped by experiences; but more importantly, we are shaped by what we do with them and how we react to them.  In this sense, trauma and other difficult things, do not have to define us.  We do not have to take on their identity or nature.  Instead, we hope in One who has promised to make all things new, including us.  We hope in His compassion and gentle healing touch.  We hope in his ferocious love for us and His commitment to our good.

And so we walk thru the pain, letting our feelings receive validation and seeing how our thinking and behavior might be altered.  But we do not stay there.  We insist that our feelings bow to truth.  We bring our thinking in line with the culture of heaven.  We declare the promises of God - even if they are still in the distance.  We fight to keep our souls in a good place, knowing that the Trinity fights for us and alongside us.

Ultimately, we find ourselves on the other side.  With richer stories to tell of who God is and who we are in Him.  We go deeper into life that is truly life.  And one more nail is struck into hell's coffin.

Stay kind. 
It makes you beautiful.  
​                      - Najwa Zebian

​When we first moved to our current house, there was a tree in the back yard that was a bit of a mystery.  You could barely tell it was a tree as vines had grown up and covered it over.  Some dead fruit on the ground suggested that it was probably a fruit tree, but that was the only clue I had - it was that unrecognizable.  So I chopped away at the vines and uprooted them so they wouldn't come back at the tree.  When the tree was visible again, it was a strange sight - bent, gnarled, growing at odd and unsustainable angles as it had been forced to do under the weight and covering of the vines.  I had to prune off a good third of the tree just to get it back to viable.  Truthfully, I wasn't sure it would survive what I had to do to it.  But it did.  And more than survive, the tree began to thrive, to be tremendously fruitful, and to grow to its new shape.  This year it is covered in (I estimate) about 1500 pears - so many that the limbs are breaking (literally!) with the fruitfulness.

Often times, life, circumstances and even our own choices come at us like the vines - covering and weighing us down to the point where we are unrecognizable, even to ourselves.  We lose our shape, our fruitfulness, and all we can do is simply fight in whatever ways our souls can muster, to find the light of day.  And we wonder - am I too far gone?  Is my soul too gnarled, too bent?  Has too much damage been done?  And could I ever survive what might be necessary for my healing and restoration.  And God replies:  you are not too far gone.  You are not beyond restoring.  You've not been lost forever under the weight of life and stress and loss and pain.  You're still in there, I'm still for you, and i will make a way to bring you back to yourself, back to the truth of you written in Me.  I will bring you back to my good plans and purposes for your life.  You will always have a place in my heart, in my house, in my kingdom.

I invite you to hope today.  To believe that the vines weighing down your soul can be broken off.  To believe that the pain inherent in the process of restoration will be worth it.  Working together, we can find you again and help you back to life and fruitfulness.

     Scripture reveals that God has primary passions and desires:  to love and be loved, to be honored for Who He is, to exist in union and oneness, to act creatively and procreatively, to exert rule and authority, to relate intimately.  Since we are made in God’s image, these are also our primary drives and passions, but the fall of humankind has corrupted our understanding of them as well as the ways in which we walk them out. 
     For example, the exercise of authority has all too often degenerated into tyranny.  Love gets confused with lust or fleeting emotion.  Union is watered down to only involve sex (physical joining) without any joining of soul or spirit.  And self-esteem is now gotten through what we do (e.g., achievement, money, domination, people pleasing, etc.) rather than what or who we are (people who are deeply loved, desired and valued by the Father who made them).  In a similar way, marriage has come to mean things other than what God intended. 
     We can call French fries “health food”, but it doesn’t make it so.  Things are not so much defined by the labels we put on them, but rather how they’re actually lived out.  So it becomes important to distinguish what is and isn’t love, what is and isn’t marriage.  Born in heaven, marriage is God-sized.  God intended it to be a glorious and powerful thing.  An in-life representation of how Jesus feels about us.  In the end, many of the troubles we have in marriage come from our underestimation of it.  We have settled for something far too small.  The remedy is to get a God-sized view of marriage rather than settling for the watered down version we’ve experienced.

​     The writing has been on the wall since the beginning of time.  Satan, furious at a God he is far too small to defeat, has taken aim at what God loves:  us.  Satan’s original tactic was two-fold.  He accused the character and heart of God, and he created division in marriage.  And that has been his strategy ever after.  You must recognize that your marriage has an enemy intent on bringing you down.  If you don’t see that, you won’t be able to wage an effective battle for your relationship.  Your enemy is not your spouse.  Instead, you and your spouse have a common enemy.  You can withstand and put down the assault with a united front against him, using the weapons of truth (of you, of God, as found in scripture),  righteousness (good choices that line up with doing things God’s way), and love.  I am more than happy to help you learn how.

​In the beginning God created (by forming from nothing) the heavens and the earth.  (Gen. 1:1, Amplified Bible)  By faith (that is, with an inherent trust and enduring confidence in the power, wisdom and goodness of God) we understand that the worlds (universe, ages) were framed and created (formed, put in order, and equipped for their intended purpose) by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things which are visible. (Heb. 11:3, AB)
 
            You might find it odd that I say that those two passages are the basis for hope.  Let me explain.  God created all that we know out of nothing.  He didn’t need starting material.  God was the starting material.  Everything that lives and breathes and exists was formed out of God Himself.  He used His very being to bring all of this into existence, including your life.  What that means for us in the most practical sense, is that God’s intervention in our lives doesn’t rest on anything we bring to the table, except a willingness to have Him intervene.  We don’t have to have our acts together, we don’t have to have resources to contribute toward our problem, we don’t have to have ability. 
            If your life is failing apart, or your marriage is a hot mess, that’s OK.  Because the power to change that lies in the person of God.  In His goodness.  In His faithfulness.  In His power, and wisdom, and kindness.  All you have to bring is a desire to be changed and a willingness to cooperate.  And even that is a bit sketchy, since one of my favorite prayers in scripture is the man who said, “Lord I believe.  Help my unbelief.” (Mark 9:24)  Sometimes that’s where we have to start.  “Lord, I’m willing; help my unwillingness.  Lord, I want change; help the part of me that is comfortable staying in my mess.  Lord I believe you, but I confess that there are times I struggle with that.  Help me in the struggle”
            Things are never too far gone, too dead, too decayed, for God.  It is never too late for God to save the day, so it is never too late for you to hope.  God made all of this out of nothing.  Let's press on toward life together.